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Dec. 10th, 2006 @ 01:35 am (arrow pointing skyward) dec 10 aka update
Current Location: houghton till 22
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Atreau
ship out Jan 2, 2007 happy new years

the girl says she wants to be my girl.
yippy!!!
but takes the job in Oklahoma
surrounded by guys equially nerdy to me
we will see how me being international engineering
and her being air traffic contoling works out.

my doggy is pregnant and due between x-mas and 2007
funny thing is that there is only one puppy though

moms buisness is booming
shane in college (buisness/HVAC)
dad unhappily employeed

me been working out a bunch thinking about boxing competative
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Mar. 19th, 2006 @ 01:37 am fresh shit
Current Mood: goodgood
Current Music: sound of setteling - death cab
lets see the newest things i've learned

1. no book should ever be judged by its cover
lets see i made out with this chick who was just totally like looking like a whore and was totally hott in doing so (with 2 t's) and ended up being a fire breather

2. anything is possible so long as you try first.
i made out with a super hott russian chick
i also managed to get my super shy buddy to suck a shot out of a awsomely hott madison wisconson chicks navel based on nothing more than him saying she looked cute and me talking smoth and confandent

c. i have my confadence back, because i know when i walk into the room i have the biggest cock there, no questions asked.
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Feb. 24th, 2006 @ 12:59 am deep shit charlie chan
Current Mood: fullfull
Current Music: coheed and cambrera
some poem
Its a cruel game
there are no winners
i never new i started
the questions that you want
are in the answers that she gave
mystified and indignant
i am not perfect
nor do i claim the title
she herself claims fault
but makes no action to repair
fault without realization
i am gone, she is danger
fear for her, her mind
broken as found, no refunds
i am cracked, still alive

Also some poem
against my chest a heart beating out of step
a soft, warm breath on my lips 
a hand on my ear muffles the morning
another grips my thumb, disappearing under my palm
smell of lavender, must and fresh flowers
i dare not open my eyes, for i am alone
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Feb. 8th, 2006 @ 01:51 am carnival
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: traffic
so winter carnival is just around the corner which means just one thing for the next 4 nights i will be drunk, buzzed, blitzed and saturday depending on things go i may just try to beat my old record.

party at my house thursday, like around 10, byob shots a buck, if i know ya i'll cut some deals

yeah i plan on having no inhabitions this weekend so beware and i guess i can always just lie to myself if anything goes on i don't like, little lesson i picked up from an old friend.
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Feb. 1st, 2006 @ 01:21 am oh music, it rocks
Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
Current Music: best of bob dylan
favorite lines from "we trusted you-transplants"

Stood by your side, you put a knife in my back
Never ever thought it'd be you who would do me like that
But we live and we learn, or so it's said

It's got me fucked up, I just can't let it go
Will we ever be the same? Well my answer is no

If you don't stand for nothing I can't really stand behind you
Who knew you withdrew your point of view
I lost mine, you cry and whine all the time
And I cant stand aside or anywhere near you
I'd get in check, you're a wreck, no respect,
In effect you elect me to fuckin' hate you

in a fantasy all day long, it must be so fun being so fucking dumb
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Jan. 8th, 2006 @ 07:57 pm (no subject)

well i made it up to houghton and the roads sucked down state i got a ticket upstate.

home sucked i spent all my money so i can still drive around places
i talked with people and found out that all the little things that were driving me nuts that i wrote off as me just overthinking were actually true plus some more stuff that makes me absolutely irate

well on a good note i have all my books and am actually fealing good about this symester and broomball is starting up you can check out my team at the broomball site

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Jan. 6th, 2006 @ 05:25 pm :(
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: death cab - i will fallow you into the dark
nobody should ever have to feel this way

theres not a day goes by that i don't close my eyes and drift back to a moment of contentment and bliss only to open them again and see the truth of reality befor me. i (am/was/are/could be) head over heals fallen for a girl. Our lifes diverged and my feelings stayed the same. seeing her again was as if only a day had passed her beauty so freash in my mind, but the reality always sunk in as dawn always came and washed out my happiness, its a difficult thing climbing out of love, so ez to fall, yet so hard to retreat. I don't know what to (think/do/say/act/feel) so i wait for a quite moment to hold her in my arms and stair into the moon as the moon will always be there even when we can't see it a faith of sorts.

perhaps i read to much into things thinking that for once in my life i was loved without blood binding that love, and thinking for a moment that i was not a tool, i was not just the best option at the time. the say opertunity knocks but once, and sometimes opertunity drives a truck through the living room wall. for those who may read this watch out for opertunty and take advatage of it while you can but also be weary that opertunity can lead you to stark disapointment, and that reality just as the moon is constant and that being human is advantagous in our ability to adapt, learn and grow from experiances.
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Dec. 29th, 2005 @ 09:35 pm pritty words
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: death cab for cutie
Squeaky swings and tall grass
The longest shadows ever cast
The water's warm and children swim
And we frolicked about in our summer skin

I don't recall a single care
Just greenery and humid air
Then Labor day came and went
And we shed what was left of our summer skin

On the night you left I came over
And we peeled the freckles from our shoulders
Our brand new coats so flushed and pink
And I knew your heart I couldn't win
Cause the seasons change was a conduit
And we left our love in our summer skin
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Dec. 22nd, 2005 @ 07:52 pm happy christmas
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: jem - 24 hours
well lets see....

all i want for christmas is all my hearts desires. thats problie asking for too much but it is what i want ;)

my trucks trans went ($2800)
crashed into a snowbank ($0)
i went to the lions game ($73.68)
see karen tonight, after 3+ months (priceless/nearve racking)

at work everyone there is excited buying gifts for thier families or girlfriends or are excited that its the first christmas there daughters understand what presents are. its funny but i envy them as much as they tell me they hate there job and want to go back to school like im doing, but really they wouldn't, loving companions/families of there own they have something i see myself without for a long time. they always tell me im better off single and going to school but i come home to parents who are tierd and watching tv or stressing over x-mas cuz we are hosting i don't have anyone to ask me how my day was or give me a kiss or complain that my paycheck wasn't big enough this week, i find it funny in the heart sinking kinda way, if anyone kinda gets what im saying would ya post and let me know.
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Dec. 13th, 2005 @ 02:10 am news
bad news: 3 more exams to go
im now an avid smoker
i have no idea what i want to do

good news: the hard exam is done im mixed on its outcome
leave for home thursday morning should roll into town right around dinner time
looks like im going to the lions game when i get home should be fun
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